it was the most pain i’ve felt in my life. physical pain. but not the pain we commonly experience and are familiar with. it was a pain i felt deep inside my body, near my chest and heart. it pumped through my veins, it made my arms feel light. My body tingled and i felt cold like a corpse. my body did not respond, my mind was useless. i could feel the people shaking me, hitting me, telling me to wake up, and to open my eyes. my body was like a dead weight. it scared me, i thought i was going to die. earlier that day i was in deep thought thinking that death would be acceptable at the moment, it would be peaceful. in that moment, i was not fighting, i thought it was over. i did not try to respond to the commands but i was scared. i was silently screaming inside, but nothing was happening.